i guess she slept all day. at least thats what she said. i am upset. i took a seroquel. i went to the store and just got back and my next door neighbor moved my cig butt bucket. i dont know why but it made me feel even more upset. i dont even know why it seems really trivial but yet i feel like it is a big deal.

also today is my Ts girlfriend's twins 10th bday. i talked to one of the staff at the program i was in and she told me that and she said shes going out to dinner with them tonight. i guess in all honesty i feel sad and kind of jealous of the twins. bc i had just turned 10 when my dad died. i just wish that i had someone like T with me when i was 10. no one was really there for me when i was young.

hpefully the seroquel kicks in and ill just go to bed. i feel overly emotional right now