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Originally Posted by Flyer
You are not alone, nor are you the 'only'.  There are times when we all 'just get tired'. Doesn't everyone?
Therapy and time [age] helped a lot. I highly recommend therapy if you're not.
Often therapy let me know I wasn't nuts and it was okay to experience my feelings. Getting the crap out into the open where I could deal with it. Unloading troubles with another person can lighten the feelings. When I felt lost and in the dark, my therapist held out a 'comforting hand in the darkness' and let me know that I was okay. Sometimes I was unable to pin point the cause, and therapists just have a way to help me do that.
Through therapy I learned some skills/tools, and come up with some of my own to put in my little bag of tricks.
I came here, before going to a therapist this time, as I too am questioning my 'place' and have been out of sorts since November. This place is helpful for me at this time. I'll see where it goes.
Best wishes, and take good care of you! 
We're all in this together. |
Thank you, Flyer.
I got so sick of therapy. I felt like it wasn't helping anymore/like I'd gone as far as I could go with it. Apparently not. Maybe it was just that way with that therapist.
Still, I'm so sick of it. I feel so pressured. I suck at speaking. If I could write everything down, hand it to someone, and
then have them respond, it'd be so much better. But often, I open my mouth and my brain just ****s me.
I don't feel alone here. But I feel alone where I am. I'm afraid I'm burning out my one light. And I'm not a priority. And I get that, but it's rough. I feel like the more I say to him, the more alien I become. I don't feel comforted. I just feel like a problem waiting to be solved. It's terrible of me to even lay my **** on someone like this anyway. So maybe all I really am is just a problem to be solved, a damaged toy on a conveyor belt.
I'm sorry to be negative. This place is helpful to me, I agree. At least I can say something like that here and not feel like I'm obliging anyone to do anything.
Sigh.
Again, thank you.