I really hope you find what works for you. But please take caution in doing so. I tried to go med free about 1.5 years ago and it only took me one week before I was back in a psychiatric hospital. Also please know that those who do find help through medication did not find the right combination of meds overnight. It took me 2 years and 15 different medications to find the combination that worked, and I find that kind of thing being a pretty universal experience. Good luck with everything, and I hope you find happiness and peace soon.