Thanks everyone!

I have tried the taper down but I have zero self control. I have to give them to my husband to dole out...and that never ends well. lol We end up in a huge argument and he throws his hand up. I can't blame him, I'm such a b sometimes.

As for the meds...I have no idea why I quit them. I also have ocd, so that might be part of the problem. I get really obsessed about what the med is doing in my body, how its changing me, etc. I read everything I can find about its side effects until I am sure I'm about 2 seconds from whatever the worst case scenario would be. I know this is ridiculous but can't stop it...so then I quit taking it.

Ha! Even as I write that I can see the irony...I obsess about what the med will do to me but fill my body with a KNOWN danger like soda and cigarettes all day. That is so jacked up..I swear I just have to laugh at myself sometimes.