I just want to chime in here and identify with this, because I go wild when I try to quit. First time I tried, I lasted four hours. I was totally rageful, crying, just awful. Second time I lasted eight hours, and it was basically the same thing.

But the first time... I was in my junior year of college and my ex and I were at the supermarket and I wanted to buy a bag of lollipops to allay the oral fixation, and he balked, saying I'd gain weight. (I had an eating disorder from senior year of high school going into my first year of college and I'm very sensitive about my weight). I snapped and almost had a breakdown in the store. The tears were welling up in my eyes at the checkout. It was effing terrible. I flipped on him when we got home. And then I went back to smoking. Four hours in.

So I totally know how you feel. I've never met anyone else who's had this same problem with quitting. So it's nice to meet you!

I mainly use e-cigs now, but still smoke regular cigarettes. The e-cigs have helped me cut down from real cigs quite a bit, and it's a step in the right direction. IMO, the handful of chemicals in the e-cigs are overall a better option than the thousands of chemicals in regular cigarettes.