Hi everyone. I have Bipolar 2 and am currently not on any meds (haven't been for a year and a half)...for some reason I give up meds before they can do any good. My former psych said that this is a common "trait" of people with Bipolar. **shrugs** Smoking (cigarettes) is my drug/coping method of choice but its just not working anymore AND I'm feeling the cigarettes taking a toll on my body. I'm approaching 40 and don't want smoking to take my life....I've smoked off and on for 22 years...probably more on than off.

Plus, I'm overweight and have a serious soda addiction as well...I look terrible, feel terrible and can't seem to do anything to improve my situation.

Everytime I try to quit, I swing into this rage cycle...I literally vibrate with irritation. I never make it through without going back to my habits. I am considering meds again but feel defeated...like I already know I won't stick with them. Its frustrating....so annoying.

I don't know what to do...any suggestions. I know you can't tell me what to do...I just need someone to tell me it can get better.