OH JIN
I am so sorry you feeling badly.I don't have all the answers. Is there another way of looking at the situation? Could you distract yourself with a Bubble Bath/glass of wine (if of age of course)Call a friend & go see a funny movie? with some delicious Ice Cream after!!! Jinny, You deserve the best, you are the best, treat yourself Lovingly.I wish you much Love & this idea: "Go first to your Highest Thought About Yourself. Imagine the You that would be if you lived that thought everyday"- Awesome isn't it!!
With much Love Jinny