Have been thinking about yr answer iditp20!

I don't think its that I'm putting off getting treatment. I just seem to not care.

It's like I'm two people - the suicidal one and the other "mildly interested in life because she has kids and doesn't really have a considerate choice in whether she can die" one.

I imagine being gone and I barely care.... Certainly not for me - mainly for the people who have to attend the funeral etc. It scares me...

When I'm drunk the 90:10 self often appears and sometimes the 10 cries because it is so tired....

And it's raining bank debts here today as well!!

Can Never be Numb Enough!