hi
it is natural to be feeling what you do. lots of people do. it is like your friend crossed sides to the enemy camp, she abandoned you. she did something she knew would hurt you. that is the ultimate betrayal. you have to questions, do you need frinds like that and find a way to let it go and move one. welcome to psych central. you will find that there are several forums here where you can post about your thoughts and receive feedback from other members. you will get a lot of support here. again, welcome