I went to ex-T's office to sign the release to get the document I wanted. The secretary photocopied it for me. She said everyone at the clinic is really upset. I guess that's a strange thought from this side of the fence...a clinic full of Psychiatrists, Psychologists, and Masters degree therapists, and they are all depressed.
I didn't press her for more information because I could see she was hurting and I didn't want both of us to start crying. I couldn't anyway. The minute I try to talk about it I'm crying.
Yesterday, when I got the news, I was able to call new T and left a message. As I was leaving the message I thought, well, I see her next week and there's nothing she can do so I guess she doesn't need to call me back. I ended the message and said I'd talk to her later and didn't leave my contact number. She called back anyway!! I was VERY happy she did and had an opening the next day. It worked out perfect because I was able to get the info from the file from old T on the 3rd floor and then meet with new T on the 1st floor immediately afterward.
As much as losing my old T this way is hard, I know that moving forward and my new T (that she recommended) is better.
Still, I'd like to know when the hurting will stop, and the crying too. I am so tired of crying!! I miss her so so much.

If I could
See your face one more time
Hear your voice one more time
See your smile one more time
Hear your laugh one more time
See your eyes shining one more time
Hear your words of encouragement one more time
If I could only have just one more time