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I am so sorry for you. My heart actually aches. You've been given a lot to handle. I'm glad you have PC so we can support you.With all the misery you are going through You know cutting will not erase, cure,or cause the disappearnce of any of the challenges you are facing & are @ to face. Only You can decide cutting is not an option. No choice,It's over.Not even given consideration. So what else can we do? I understand how hard this is I cut too. But now you can build,getting to THE BEST Hospitals, Drs. etc. in your area.