I tend to break up with guys because after awhile I start feeling exhausted in the relationship. I don't know if this is just because I haven't found the right guy for me, or if it's because I'm just not ready for a relationship right now, or if there's something fundamentally wrong with me.

I should also point out that I deal with anxiety and depression. So that plays into this. This "exhausted" feeling starts showing up after a couple months into a relationship. No matter how good the guy is, I break up with them seemingly out of no where and I feel relieved afterwards....then a few months later I regret it and kick myself for doing that.

I don't understand why I'm doing this. It's almost become a pattern. Is this commitment-phobia or something? Where is this exhaustion coming from? I seem to have a hard time being comfortable around these men as well, almost like I have trouble being myself around them because deep down I think they won't like me or that I'll "mess up" and embarrass myself or something. Almost like I have to be "perfect" all the time, I have to have my make up done (god forbid they see me without make up) I have to look good all the time, act happy, not show them any of my faults.

Can't make sense of this...it's bothering me because recently I did the same thing, broke up with a great guy because I was feeling "exhausted" in the relationship...even though I was falling in love with him, calling him on the phone felt like a chore...shouldn't being with a great guy do the opposite for me? Shouldn't I be feeling energized in a relationship?
Forever alone.