The anger/irration is symptoms of a mixed mood. I know, a choice has to be made. Their are meds out there that can do for you what you want. For instance, I don't want to be dumb, so I found Lamotrigine that does that for me, I stay clear headed and with emotion. I choose to not be a jerk to my kid, so I'm medicated. Sacrifices has to be made...curses bipolar!