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Old Feb 06, 2015, 02:49 PM
AnxiousandAlive124 AnxiousandAlive124 is offline
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Let me start out by saying that my feelings for my therapist aren't a big surprise. I'm a lesbian woman who has also experienced these kinds of feelings with other women before, some that were unattainable to me.

After thinking about my transference/feelings, I have come to the conclusion tha t my feelings are part of a therapuetic dynamic and they are also personal for me. Which makes more sense to why I don't understand them. In my past I have had crushes on teachers, earliest one being when I was 7, lol. Its not a new occurence in my life. But, I don't think my crushes are based out of the figures being in authority, I just seem to happen to like them/ be able to fall for people fairly easily. I think it could possibly be my unconscious trying to tell me I desire a strong romantic relationship...I get told I am sweet and caring quite often, if that helps to understand me better.

I've had these feelings for several months, but I am debating whether or not to tell my therapist since I think there is some potential for growth and understanding here etc. Also since its happened before, so I am naturally curious as to what it means. Part of me says yes, take the plunge! Part of me says no, no reason to and I am afraid that she might transfer me? I don't know how this is typically handled. Although I don't think T's should do that to clients, feelings are feelings. :/

Btw, this therapist could be my mom, she is 31 yrs older than me and she's probably straight (not to say I'm anticipating anything coming of my attraction). As a side note, if she broke boundaries for whatever reason, I know I wouldn't be able to control myself ahaha But I would never want to jeopardize her job or status.

Any kind of feedback or relational stories would be appreciated.