lol. no, I meant instead of giving her your diary, write something with the intention of giving it to her. It's a bit less intimidating than handing over somethign you thought would only ever be seen by you.

Though if the fantasy is really about someone like her, but not her, that's something to talk about. I mean like her more than just the fact that you are looking for an older woman, but if the woman would look like her and act like her, but not be her... I can see where that would be very intimidating to admit.

Also, if you find that what you write is not something you want to show her, you can always chose not to give it to her. I write to my T all the time as if I was sending her an email. I find it's easier for me to both censor certain things while still being open about others. It's the distinction of writin gfor yourself vs writing for someone else's eyes...

(I'm suddenly pictureing something along the lines of what I imagine 50 shades of grey to be like... never read the books, but heard about them... that would be kinda hard to tell T about... it was hard enough for me to try to talk to one of my former T's about some bdsm stuff I needed to figure out, and it certainly didn't involve anyone like her. I don't know if I could have spoken to her about it if I was fantasies about a woman my age. I'm a lesbian, but for whatever reason the fantasies always involved older men... well, ok, I know the reason, but... yeah. It would have been weirder talking to her about it if it were about a woman around my age... and I'm sure that's tmi, sorry... o_O)