Thank you @amandalouise I'll check out your link. Actually, I think I'll find it helpful because I've been homeschooled my whole life and feel like I've never really had much of an idea of what it looks like to develop identity. Combine lack of conceptualization with anxiety and genetic OCD and it could all add up to this. Maybe it sounds silly but I think there's some truth to it.

@kim_johnson I've really appreciate all the helpful information you've provided! It's been very helpful. I'm excited to feel like I'm able to go somewhere with all this, since I sort of felt like I was "stuck" when I made this post. I don't know if that makes sense, but either way I'm really thankful for all the time you've put into helping me.