not bad enough because I am still here, but yes, I had a ruptured brain aneurysm, I had to have clip put in brain to stop the bleed, believe me, I didn't make that choice, if they had ask me if I wanted to have surgery to stop it, I would have said "hell no, let me go". Can I share this with you. When my braid exploded I saw a beautiful light, and I saw tree's that weren't there. It was cold outside that day, in the dead of winter, but I felt warm, I felt so good that the pain was secondary, oh it hurt, believe me. My sister and I work together, I was at work when it happened, I told her I could feel God and she told me that I should ask him if I can stay a little longer, for the grandchildren, my daughter, my family, but not for me. I did as she said and I asked. I don't remember anything else, when I came to a week later, that was the only thing I could remember. My family said that I talked to them hours before surgery, that I was joking and laughing and kept telling them I was fine other than a headache. I'm not going to lie, I am in the worst place I could ever imagine, not just my environment, but my state of mind as well. I now ask, why not, why did I have to stay so I have to encourage, because if I don't, I have no hope. I have to have some hope, it's hard, so hard, but I'm trying you know. I hope for all.

I read your bio etc... I don't know all that you are suffering thru right now, or what you have gone thru. I hope to encourage you, to give my tired little life some purpose and meaning. When I can't feel, when I am numb, when I feel like saying enough! I hope.