i am feeling pretty hopeless over my own stuff right now. i just want to give up. i know i cant but i am feeling like i have to sit in this for a bit and be ok with the feelings. i am tried of constantly working hard and doing all the right things and keeping myself in check only to have these setbacks. im sick of it. so i want to be angry and upset for abit and i will worry about getting back on track after i have dwelled in it for a while. right now i want to rest from owrking so hard at doing the right thing all the time when it doesnt seem to solve the problem.

take care.