50 guy...I sent you a PM...please read it.

I think my mind is playing tricks on me because I want to believe what I heard was really not a big deal. But I also feel if it wasn't a big deal, he would have said, "Ok, let's go to my job and listen to what you are talking about." But he didn't...he just kicked me in my leg and slapped my face because I said, "IF you are a real man, you'd do this for me." He said, "Don't you ever question my manhood again". Mind you guys, this was as of the end of March. It is now almost June. When the bruise showed on my leg I showed him and he said, "That's nothing compared to the emotional abuse you've given me over the past 10 years."

So, here I am....still struggling....trying to make most of my day-by-days....going to counseling....going thru the cycle. But I"M NOT OKAY!!!!