The more stories of similar stories to my own the more I learn doctors just don't know in this case.

What did happen was the SSRI I was taking triggered symptoms of Bipolar 1: Manic and depressive episodes.

Doctors, including my own, don't know if it was just going to happen in the future anyway, that I had bipolar dormant. Or that this could all just go away after months of treatment with Lithium and Lamictal.

I hate uncertainty. Regardless, I'm a pragmatic person. The lithium is temporary (3 months) and the lamictal will stay and treat depression and might mask bipolar 1 if I do have it too. I'm collecting quite the resume of disorders. God, I'm a wreck. Moving in with my mother now. Seeing doctors constantly. My home is a wreck. I barely have nough energy to brush my teeth. It's amazing that I still get up in the morning and white-knuckle it to work.
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