Hi afeelingd,
Managed to find you these links, I don't know if they will help but...........
I Hate My Life
Los Angeles, CA Free Clinics | Affordable Medical and Dental Clinics in Los Angeles County
And I'm not sure if you could get help from the Patient Assistance Programmes.....although I'm not from the US so I might have imagined that, so check out the links first, hey??
And if it turns out there is nothing physically wrong........then maybe medication could help a little with the depression.......of course it's not a "cure" but maybe something to help you take the steps in your therapy towards better overcoming what happened to you and in finding/developing/using some (more?) coping skills???
And that doesn't need to mean you'd need that medication long term, as you're finding other ways/things that might work for you.
But that would need to be down to a doctor to say if you needed anything or not.......just a thought.
You might find the forums for PTSD and Self Esteem helpful here too, if you take a look.
But glad you're with us. No giving up on reaching for help/support, hey??!!

Alison