No. The official test will happen this weekend after each library visit. Last week was a nightmare. Saturday I wasn't feeling good at the library so I left and then I couldn't stop crying for 5 hours until I hit a brick wall and passed out.

Sunday at the library I felt agitated so I left and it only grew into anger... then extreme rage that didn't subside until late at night. It was horrible.

So if this weekend is stable then that's an improvement! All I want to do in life is read, write and drink once in awhile. I'm not very dependent on external things, but when my mental life is robbed my soul is crushed.