Hey everyone. Hope you're all having a great day!!

I use to see a T, who would let me hold his hand (i am a female), would give me hugs (I asked) at the end of sessions. When things were getting tough, or I was crying, or angry, he would let me just grab onto his hand. (had to leave him for financial reasons)

My current T doesn't do that. I've brought it up and we tried, but he doesn't want to even though it helps me stay grounded, not harm myself in session and it helps calm my anxiety, feeling someone else. He offered some stress toys which I tried, but it wasn't the same. I really want to have the option to hold his hand.. It makes me feel so lost, and alone in session.. Also, really hopeless. It makes me miss my old T so much...

Is there anything I can do to bring it back up again? I really find it helpful. When he doesn't I just get VERY upset and angry, and numb.