Rainbow-- I totally get it. And if you feel it is working for you....that is all that matters. Your sessions sound very healing to me. I wish my therapist would do that. Deep down, I feel it would be healing for me. She sits by me sometimes when asked, we hug, and sometimes she will put her hand on my back but those things are brief. I don't feel it or anything because they last like 1 second. I knew nothing about therapy when I started 1 1/2 years ago. If I could do it over I would choose a SE therapist who would explore these things with me.