Hi Rainbow8 - I just wanted to add another voice saying that I never had any thoughts that your therapy was wrong, hurtful, or about to blow up on you.

I don't know alot about SE (just what you've written here!), but I think it sounds fascinating. A little scary for me, but fascinating, and I think it could be very helpful. Really, I'm a little jealous, because I can imagine how having your T hold your hand could be helpful, make it easier to feel connected, and make it easier to process some of the hard stuff. And, I don't know, but I suspect my T is not anywhere near the hand-holding camp!

I hope you continue to find it helpful, and that you continue posting updates, if you don't mind sharing, because it really is interesting to hear about. I actually went and looked up SE-trained therapists near me (though I can't really deal with any more therapists at the moment, just the one adds more than enough craziness to my life!)