TickTock,

I have been getting creeped out lately every time I see a mention of the 50 Shades of Grey film, too. My reaction is not nearly as strong as yours, though. I will not see certain films or read certain books that have sexual violence in them or certain types of physical violence.

The physical violence has been a trigger for me since I was a child. I suppose my parents weren't letting me watch movies with sexual violence in them, so I can't say about that.

There's a term that I've learned about in the last 2-3 years - Highly Sensitive Person (HSP.) You might want to investigate it and see if it fits you.

The whole topic is definitely one that a good therapist should be able to help you with if you see one.

I think there are probably more people than we realize who are disturbed by scenes of sexual or physical violence in books or films. I think maybe men in particular may feel like they shouldn't say if they are. I really liked the "Girl With The Dragon Tattoo" trilogy and was surprised to hear my brother-in-law say that it had a disgusting amount of gratuitous violence in it and that he didn't like it at all. He's not American - he's from a Scandinavian country and has a different take on cultural issues sometimes.

I'm not trying to invalidate what anyone else said about the possibility of abuse in your background. In fact, my first assumption about my own reactions was that I must have abuse that I didn't remember. As far as I know, I don't, though.

Good luck with this issue.