Alwayschanging, I am truly sorry to read your post. Sorry because it tells me there is some pain and just unpleasant emotions going on. My (step) son is taking his 2 year old daughter back to her mom's in a different state. Althoughit seemed like I could hardly take care of myself I realized she helped me make it through the nights when he worked and I had her. After Wednesday, I will be all alone, waiting my divorce and many friends turned on me. So I understand about breaking down and crying and yes over commercials or tv, songs on the radio/my ipod. All I know is it does hurt, but it hurts more to hold it in and try and find the energy to contain it. I am hear if you just need to explore feelings/emotions or just write even if it doesn't seem to make sense....you are not alone and don't have to be