Maybe you need a different T? I have a really strong fancy for my therapist, but I haven't felt like this about every therapist I've seen. I think it's hands down the one reason I've stuck it out in therapy.

I feel like my therapist cares about me and is empathetic and at the same time since I care so much about him it means that much more to me. I do feel understood for the most part, I mean as understood as I've ever been at least! I don't really think there's a set goal for us, we also bounce around from topic to topic, and I'm sure he forgets things I've said. Somehow I've come to decide that it doesn't matter, I think the therapy for me is our relationship. He makes me feel safe; somehow having a weekly appointment makes me feel safe even though I rationally know he can't help me with anything. I've also learned a lot about myself because I'm constantly googling stuff he says and just reading about therapy topics in general. He also turns me on and makes me smile . He gives me hope that life isn't all doom and gloom, that people might like me, that not everyone is a mean liar.