Drinking is what is causing you to
wallow and fret about her being gone, Put down the booze, pour it down the drain, get engaged in your life, Your LC would tell you to not have another drink and you know this. So honor her wishes.
Be happy knowing that your LC is on a much deserved vacation and that your able to keep your shyt together to be full of tales of you using skills to help yourself when shes back. That is a huge gift
you can give her.
Im going to go curl up with my Kindle and get lost in a book. Maybe you could try the same thing.