I've been down. So far down, for a couple of months. I've never in my life talked to anyone, about anything personal.
It just scares me.
The last couple of days, I've been really struggling. I just, I don't even know how I feel anymore.
I just feel so down I don't know which way up is. Is there even an up!?
I guess I should have listened to people, when you hear them say 'don't bottle things up' I now understand. I've run out of space, it's like it's all seeping out. Forming the big thick fog around me. I can't see past it.
I just wish there was someone who could crack me open. Someone to persist until I break. To push me to my limits.

I'm over it .