I isolate in my house a lot because doing pretty much anything makes me anxious except maybe the grocery store. The weirdest thing though is I act and do theater, and I'm fine with that.

Well today I'm singing/reading poetry in a coffee house fundraiser for my current play, and my anxiety is through the roof - but not performance anxiety. I'm not afraid of screwing up. I'm afraid of the minute details - like, I'm supposed to arrive at 12:30 but that's also when doors open to the public. And also I'm bringing some art to donate/sell and donate the money and I'm worried no one will buy it. And then there's the social aspect, will I say something stupid.

I once almost skipped a dinner at a friends house on my own birthday because she didn't specify whether I should come to the front door or the back door (I'd used both in the past) and without knowing which door was appropriate, I was practically paralyzed.