you know, my friends always post/retweet/share things like "im messed up, you know?" "i feel down" and they are the ones who ridicule my depression. it's like... you can have feelings and i can't?

i am honestly running away from what i feel. i don't want to face this anymore. not having a reason to why you feel down.. low.. hopeless... just sucks.

on another note, i miss old T. sure new T is okay (nothing she has exhibited made me go panicky yet) but it's at these times where the comfort and reassurance of old T would be great. sure old T has an open door policy, i can ask new T to help me create an appt to see old T.. but i just don't want to meet her and we end up not talking.

i'm stuck with two people i can barely trust and i don't know where should i turn to anymore.