When the big damage happens the mechanism that says "hey, maybe we shouldn't do this" gets fried and there is no organized thinking what so ever. These moments frighten me and are the ones that make me want to stop this once and for all.

The extended discomfort situation is a tricky one because it starts out "ok we shouldn't do this" then it gradually builds up until I just am tired of saying "no" and am tired of feeling bad, or hearing the chatter, or being bored. It is like wearing really tight jeans, eventually one just has to take them off. Unfortunately, I tend to cut them off rather then undoing the button and zipper. Kinda a waste of clothing, ha ha. I don't even know how to use the zipper and buttons. Of course there was a period of time when I didn't know zippers and buttons existed so I guess I have made an improvement.
Carrie

<font color=green>Not knowing when the dawn will come, I open every door.--Emily Dickenson