I was going to start DBT, had plans for scheduling my day, etc. Who am I kidding...I'm not going to do any of that. I have had a near constant headache that won't go away, I'm feeling hopeless, I'm mad, and last light after I came home from a crappy night at work (I wait tables and some customers really suck) with an awful headache, I yelled at my son, ignored my husband, and took two xanax just to calm down enough so I didn't want to hurt myself. Woke up today with the same damn headache and feeling of why bother.

I was even going to call my old place of work to see if I could work a few mornings a week bc I knew the schedule would be good for me. But I doubt I will