To answer the questions, I do not take any anti-depression medication currently. I was on several different kinds in high school, including Zoloft, but they never helped or did any good, so I quit taking them eventually.

The only actual medication I am on is birth control pills. I've been on several different brands in the past 7 years. The brand I'm on now seems to be the only one that doesn't give me breakthrough bleeding in-between periods.

Unfortunately, we do not have medical insurance or any way to pay for any kind of counseling/therapy. Also, my husband is quite private and shy, and even if we could pay for therapy I don't think I could get him to go or open up at all. When we were getting married, I had originally wanted the priest from my mom's church to perform the ceremony. When she (the priest) suggested getting together with us for some 'pre-marriage counseling' and 'faith instruction', my husband flatly refused. His point of view was 'why should we have to prove ourselves or our love to someone else? We love each other, and that's all that matters.'

Another part of the problem is that our libidos seem to be on opposite schedules. He wakes up early in the morning, and always has sex on the brain first thing. Sex is the farthest thing from what I want when I first wake up. If I ever do want sex, it's late at night when he's tired and just wants to sleep.

Like last night - I had to work late, and I had walked to work, so I was surprised to see hubby there with the car to pick me up when I was done. Turns out he'd gone to the grocery store (score - one less errand for me to have to run). He'd also washed all the dishes and cleaned the stove in the kitchen while I had been working, so when I got home and saw all this I was in a very good mood. After a brief snack and one episode of Futurama, it was time for bed. I was actually horny for the first time in months! But by then it was after midnight, and while hubby told me he appreciated the thought, he was just too tired.

I just can't seem to win. I'm so frustrated and sad about the whole thing. I think I will try posting in the Sexual issues forum and see what they have to say.

Thanks for the support.