Ab,
you asked if it will get better? My parents both died when I was a kid, and the one thing I can tell you is that it will get different.

I wish I had understood that grief was more cyclical than linear - I used to thing too that time healed. Well, it changes things, and other things heal. The 'firsts' this first year will be difficult, and the anniversaries are hard too.

I've had alot of loss again in just the past few years, and it's given me an opportunity to re-grieve some leftover pain from the parent-loss, now that my kids are the ages I was going through several homes.

[[[ hugs ]]] and I'm so sorry they both died so closely spaced together, I do understand what it's like to feel adrift.