Hi, I'm new here. I'm a 37 year old female with bipolar 1 and I'm hoping to have a baby sans manic episode. Mostly I deal with depression but I've been hospitalized twice in the last ten years for severe mania (psychotic episodes) and I'm terrified of it happening again. I'm hoping to find at least 1 woman who is in similar shoes as me and who has had a baby. I'm worried about taking meds and of going off them. I'm worried about all the hormonal changes and how that will effect my mood and I'm worried about the first few months of having the baby and getting a lot less sleep. If there's anyone here who has been through this please let me know how your experience was! Thank you so much!