Oh no, I'm sorry that your car got hit! Are you OK? Were you not in it? What a pain, I hate dealing with car stuff, especially damage from accidents... I hope that you can get it fixed up quickly.

And, I'm still stunned that this guy seems to be so relaxed! I never would have guessed! I hope it continues, and he lets you work in peace

Ah, the other women that I was talking to. Three of them are project-manager types, so they work together in the office (with rare telecommuting), and apparently have plenty of work to do. They also report to someone different (I think one of them is currently acting as their manager, and then she would report to my boss' boss.) So, it's a very different environment.

The last person does the same kind of work as me, but she reports directly to my boss' boss (so she's a peer to my boss). So, she gets included on tons of interesting things, because she sits at a higher level in the food chain! This current project... the only reason I'm on it is because *she* requested me!

It was mostly the PMs talking about how much fun they have though. It's just weird... I feel like I'm so in the wrong place. And, I feel a little miffed that there's the potential for fun in our group, and that my boss' inability to actually manage the team well is like a wet blanket for all of us under him, and that nobody seems to get that.

"I also had confidence that I would be able to get any sort of job to pay my bills if it came down to it" - ahhh! I bet that was a huge help! I don't feel that sense of confidence at all... I feel like, I've had trouble getting jobs in the past and I don't know if I could just find *something* to pay the bills, if I had to. It scares me!

I do *love* the idea of working for myself though, either freelancing or having my own business, but as I've gotten older... I guess I've known enough people with their own businesses who have told me cautionary tales to scare me a little. Heck, even my therapist... when I told him that I had 3 weeks off for Christmas, told me he was a little jealous!

I guess too... I want something that I can really enjoy doing and feel like I'm doing a good job. And, I don't know what that is (*pulling out my hair with frustrating here*). It's that whole, "where do I fit in to the world" problem!

But it is fascinating to hear that you're making the same amount of money for 3-day work-weeks now! That's great!

And, thanks. That all makes sense. I'm trying to remain open to possibilities! I sort of think though that, given how I feel about everything, if I change jobs - it's going to be a big change, for the chance to do something different. Maybe... I'm just not even sure that I'm in the right field, *argh*.

re: The woman... hmmm maybe. I'm still hoping to connect with my friend, and see if she can find out what's gong on. The plan, I think, was supposed to be for my friend to keep working (but remotely from the new location), and for me to help her by taking over some of the stuff that needs to be done in person. I don't know.

Anyway, I'm not getting much done today. I'm trying to get back onto my healthy eating plan (basically no junk food 6 days a week, then 1 cheat day) - I've been eating way too much chocolate to cope with stress, and each time I try to stop, I go through some weird kind of withdrawal. My head is *killing* me, and I'm going to go curl back up in bed and catch up on the DVR I think!!! At least it's 5pm here now! I've pretty much made it through the day! One day down!

Enjoy the rest of your weekend, good luck getting your errands done!