Deja vu. Went to doctor, and despite telling nurse I wanted a blind weighing and even stood on scale backwards, the b*#ch told me my weight.

Freaked out at T's office. She reminded me of facts, like I had just gotten off an airplane and a bad illness has left me sedentary for 4 months - thus excusing the pounds I gained. (NOT underweight).

My panic hasn't abated. Since then, I have only eaten 'good' foods (very large doses of vegetables, some fruit, 10 almonds and 1 Greek yogurt/day.) I look forward to getting bloated so I want to eat less. Every time I am ready to eat, I say aloud that b/p is off the table, and I remain abstinent.

I only want to lose the gained weight, which I expect to be within 2-3 weeks. I will talk to T next time I see her in 2 weeks.

I'm still in the clear, right?