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Originally Posted by kaliope
i once knew the answer to this.....lol...........now i cant remember it clearly to explain it.
ocpd the obsessions and compulsions dont take place. everything you do makes sense to you. it is just part of the ritual of how things work. it isnt really distressing. it is a lifestyle you accepted. it is just how things work. it isnt a bother or inconvenience like these thoughts and rituals are to an ocd. it doesnt disrupt life because it is part of life. part of your personality.
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Yeah...that's kind of what I'm thinking
I don't mind the work and the perfectionism, although my therapist told me to slow down. What I mind more right now is that I keep doing things I don't expect myself to do. Like I'm focused on achievement, and then all of a sudden I'm kissing someone I feel ambivalent about and then I'm inviting him around, but then I think I want him to decline so I don't have to because I'd rather we were friends, and then I don't know.
It's like so long as I'm focused on work I'm ok, but when relationships with others come in I don't know. If I could just focus on wrk and no one was involved I'd be fine, I think, but people keep turning up in my life and I don't know how I feel about them.