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Originally Posted by vital
Hi afeelingd,
I'm not a professional, but know the feeling and I really think that anger like that, being fearful, feeling that people are trying to harm your or that people don't respect you or that people don't want to be with you is just part of your depression. This is a trick that fooled me for a long time and I think it fools many people. Your anger is real. The reasons that you are angry are real reasons and your perceptions of the situations making you angry are likely to be correct perceptions. The trick is that all of this is misdirecting you away from the true underlying problem. The true underlying problem doesn't have anything to do with the people you are angry at or with the reasons for your anger. None of that makes any difference. It doesn't even matter whether your perceptions are accurate or not. If you want to read about what I think is actually going on and what to do about it, start here
http://forums.psychcentral.com/depre...n-escaped.html
 - vital |
I generally make my own decisions. I know what I'm choosing to do. Maybe I'm just chemically imbalance and I'm not corrupted. My root issue has nothing to do with decision making. I'm not generally a procrastinator, I usually do things on time.
Also, I'm not sure there is a such thing as getting over depression, I've just happened to be this way from various things, the bullying I got tormented me mentally to the point that I want to harm any threat to my new found normality. It just has gotten to that point. I think that even if I wasn't depressed. I'd still have these same violent thoughts.
Have I ever hurt myself? Sometimes, not generally because I dislike the marks and they just make me feel worse. However, I do unconsciously not care about what happens to me (my low self esteem) and I throw myself wherever I need to go when I play sports. I don't feel the pain at all, I feel like I'm making a noble sacrifice.
In response to your Snap Club, because I already make decisions, knowing what's happening, knowing what my subconscious is doing it for, do you think it'll even effect me?
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