I've stormed out without saying goodbye innumerable times over the four years i've been with T (though i always pay before i go). In fact, he's more surprised (and clearly delighted) when i do say goodbye. The end of session is still a big trigger for me.

And once, i angrily kicked his tissue box across the floor before storming out. Still have no idea what triggered that, and while i don't usually apologise for storming out, i did apologise for kicking the tissue box.

I also have flashbacks in session and dissociate extensively. I used to feel bone-deep levels of shame over all the 'freaking out' i do, but T gently reminds me over and over that they're normal trauma reactions from a very abnormal childhood. I think i'm finally starting to believe that.