I only care about myself, my brain keeps telling me. I can't bring myself to appreciate or care about my family. I feel no shame or guilt for the ****** things I've done. It's tearing me apart. I know I love my family, but I don't feel it. Maybe I don't love them. I feel constantly insincere. I try to do good things for other people, but it's not because I want to. Well, I do want to, but not for the right reason. I don't feel I have any kindness in my heart, which is what i want to have. I want to want to help out of kindness, not just to look good or gain approval . I want to feel guilty when I screw up. I just can't seem to feel any shame. It's all about me in my mind, and I don't like that. Any replies would be appreciated. I posted something similar yesterday, but didn't get anything. What does this sound like to you?