growlycat, my T used to say, "I care" until one day i asked, "about what?" He was shocked that i hadn't realised he meant about me - until he thought about it in the context of my childhood and realised it made sense that i hadn't.

I think T says all i want him to - and sometimes more than i can bear - in terms of our relationship and the work we do (me not believing things is the sticking point). And i've finally stopped wanting him to say the abuse was my fault.

Right now, I wish he'd say i can have more than one session a week. I understand why i can't, i know it's not going to change (and that's as much to do with my situation as his), and i know he agrees that one isn't enough which feels validating; i just wish somehow, some way, he could change it.