Hello Swaggyfishsticks: I'm sorry you did not receive any responses to your previous post. You may yet. Sometimes it takes a while. I don't know... it sounds to me as though you care very much. I don't know anything about you. So it's difficult for me to say much about your concerns. I wonder if, perhaps, something has caused you to bottle up your emotions to the point where you are not able to experience the emotions you want to feel and that you know instinctively you have, somewhere. They're there, they're just imprisoned in a sort of solitary confinement.

From my perspective, I would suggest this is something that would be worth exploring with a therapist. This is not, I believe, a "condition" to be feared. It is a puzzle to be solved...