Wow 80 days that is great! I am familiar with the hole. I don't understand it yet but I am working on it. I too reach out on these forums for some connection and it has been helpful to me that it is 24/7 deal. I have not found how to fill this hole and I think for me it would be bottomless. The only thing I have learned to do is walk through the pain instead of run from it or cover it up or distract or hide from it. Sometimes it is overwhelming though and I have to stop. But other times I can't control it. I have journaled a ton in my lifetime, and recently in the last 2 years gotten in touch with what it is like to have a good cry. I like to go on long drives to try and sort things out and sometimes I have a good cry on the drive. I also replaced my alcohol and relationship addiction with books. The librarian at my local library told me there is no limit to how many books you can check out so my hole can find plenty of filling there. But truly what I need to do is learn to embrace the emptiness and experience it as a solid stillness in my life. Maybe the hole is really a meditation chamber? A place of beauty? A secret garden just for you... a special place that you can decorate however you please and keep whatever you want in the space a keep out the things you do not want.

Just some ideas... you got me thinking about the emptiness and it is something that has been coming up a lot for me lately. Sorry your neighbors are being rude and intrusive. That is so frustrating and annoying, and if it were me, I'd feel scared.

Hope things work out for you with your AA meeting and the people there. I hate it when someone shares something in a meeting that triggers you. That took some courage to go and tell the guy about it afterwards.