Justice -

The only thing I can say is that what happened to you sucked and I'm thinking of you.

I lived with a friend who was MPD with 36+ personalities. She was abused within a cult as a child and teenager. The stories were horrific and unimaginable and she too carries permenant scaring.

I think alot of people are frightened by what they read because they don't want to believe the human race can be so dispicable - but they certainly can and are.

Anniversaries are difficult - I relived abuse for years on the anniversary of my grandfathers death. Eventually I didn't relive the memories but just felt like crap. One year I actually forgot and was just wondering why I wasn't sleeping and didn't feel well - then I remembered.

I hope it gets easier for you over the years. You are recognizing the anniversary and that is the first step. Now you need to plan how you will keep yourself safe. If you cannot be hospitalized, maybe there is someone you trust that can stay with you.

Warm comforting wishes to you....Tranquility