Hey Neirin! Just a thought - maybe what you're experiencing is dissociation? It's something I've suffered from and can basically make you feel like you're completely devoid of feeling. It's basically a defence mechanism where part of your experience is cut off from your consciousness because it's too heavy or too much for you to deal with - or your mind believes it is.. Usually has to do with trauma and can be worked on with a trauma therapist. I've done it, it's not easy but it CAN be treated!