Laughter, seeing the humorous side of things, distraction-doing something 'mindless' ie games, hobby, walk, go outside, puzzles, even wearing a pair of sunglasses or hat in uncomfortable/unfamiliar places, etc. Count my blessings, that I can not express how important that is for me.

Just my thoughts for now but they could change at any minute with the state I'm in.

BF: [Over 16 years ago.] A good therapist told me that it was not my place to question my bf's reasons for being with me. That is his decision, and his alone. Keep reminding yourself of that.

Control: Personally, when I'm in that mode it may well be that I am not in control of myself, and feeling out of control and grasp to try to control anything/one. It is also easier to see the faults in others than to look at myself. Realistically I can control no one but myself, and only I can make me do anything/feel anything. ie. Not depending on others to make me happy, feel better, etc.

Self confidence: This takes some practice. It is okay to love yourself, accept yourself, tell yourself "I did good!", give yourself a pat on the back. Maybe start by telling yourself one good thing you did that day for a week. Next week do 2. It would help if you could do it in front of a mirror.

Praise: Accepting praise takes practice too. I often felt 'under a spotlight', embarrassed, etc. Finally I started by practicing 'It is okay to just say Thank You'.

Meds: Set some water and meds next to your bed/alarm clock and make it a habit to take them before you venture off the bed. I find that pill minders only 'remind' me when I remember to take them. They are helpful though to make sure I get the same dosages every day. Keep an extra pill in your purse/car/whatever for just in-case you forget.

Procrastination: No help here but to say I do this too. Often to the point of waiting til I Have to go or do something. I need to improve, but that doesn't make me a bad person.

If necessary, apologize, but don't forget to give yourself a break too and forgive yourself/condition-if that's easier. You are a valuable person whether you chose to believe it or not, you still are. Despite our faults, there are people who do forgive us and love us just the way we are, just as we do the same for them. There is no such thing as a perfect person.

Oh, the boyfriend? That man waited for 14 years for me to be 'ready' to say "I do". I did. He is the best thing that has ever happened to me and my forever best friend. Despite my shortcomings he loves me just the way I am.

In the mean time, if I happen to find your mind here amongst my clutter, I'll be sure to let you know, if you promise to do the same for me. If not, I'll just use yours for a while.