Welcome to Psych Central ocellaris. Sorry to hear you are being overwhelmed with emotions until the meds kick in. A friend went on a trip for me and got very sick from not taking the meds.

After that we have a weekly pill box and it stays right on the kitchen table so two people can check if pills taken or not. Having breakfast together means we help each other remember.

Also another aid is to set an alarm on the cell phone that annouces the time to take the pills.

Talking to your psychiatrist, maybe there is some med that you can take when you get very depressed. Something that is taken only as needed with a small dose so it does not knock you out.

My expectations have been the source of much anxiety. Probably that perfectionist mother for whom nothing was ever good enough. That really wiped out my self esteem for years. Getting a therapist can help root out invisible patterns that foul my attitude so easily.

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